Hello, I am a 21 year old woman—Anonymous
I have always felt called to motherhood. When I was a child I would cart around my baby dolls and play Mommy. Now I am an adult person, capable of being someone’s Mommy.
I am also truly in love for the first time in my life, and when I envision my future with my partner I imagine us as parents. However, I feel deeply conflicted. Even though I know we would both be ecstatic to become parents, deep down I feel like it would be wrong. The world is going to get hotter, resources are likely to be more scarce, and life will be even more difficult for my hypothetical babies. I know it is possible to adopt, but I don’t know if my finances will allow it. Secretly, I’m afraid that if I never give birth, I will regret it and possibly resent my adopted children. I don’t think that I can be the mother I always dreamed of being and it’s tearing me to pieces